Sometimes, It's Not All About Faith

To be a parent, whew, it's a huge responsibility and a big jump from taking care of two (me and husband). Someone who seems to depend so much on me - the instinct to totally care and give full undivided 24-hour attention, that nagging instinct is always there. It's also a lot of fun to be around my daughter and so all the more I am drawn toward being with her all the time.

However, in the business of living and raising up a child, often i forget that there is more to life than Faith. There is my husband too. It is easy to make him second place to a baby, because after all, he can take care of himself. There's also our marriage that constantly needs nurturing and attention. This too is easily put in the back seat. I also have my own "life" to live - space and time just for me and hobbies to soothe my creative itch. And then, there's the call that God has put in my heart to reach out and disciple other young women...

There really is a lot more to life than raising up a child. However does one handle so many responsibilities all at once?! It's no easy task to be a woman, wife, mom and minister. To keep myself sane among all these is just impossible at times. There really are moments when I just wish it's just about me, about Grace. No one else needing my attention. That for once, I can focus on Grace. How can I do this, I often ask myself as I try to sleep exhausted and spent. (And then God would whisper...) Grace. God's grace is more than sufficient for me for His power is made perfect in my weakness. Well.

So, yeah, oftentimes, it's not about faith. More than anything, it's really about grace. God's grace.